I'm so afraid to love you, but less afraid to lose,
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose.
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night,
You gave me everything you had, you gave me light.
And I will remember you,
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by.

I feel SO much better!

I do still feel just a little sad that he's gone and it's SO over, but the relief and happiness far outweighs the sadness. Sarah said to me has he contacted you yet, and I said no and she said that she was so sure he would have cracked by now. And to be honest, so was I. And the fact that he hasn't come anywhere near me, while I know that it's a good thing, makes me more aware that it's over.

So. Looking forward.