We were dying from the word go,
I was dreaming but you never believed.
I was trying to fit myself
Into the spaces in between.
And you were kind and sometimes cruel,
And you said all the love in the world
Couldn't satisfy you.
And nothing hurt me so much
As the truth.

I need to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I need to find...

...A cottage with a sea view,
A regular summer tan,
I know that I deserve more,
But I still want you.

Welcome to my California home,
You don't need to call me,
Or tell me when you leave.
Tell me, because I don't know,
Do you still feel that love for me?


So incredibly exhausted! Didn't bother going to the work function...didn't really want to see Adam and Casey drool over each other all night. So went round to Marie's and spent the evening with her and Josh, drinking wine, eating pizza and watching dvds. Got texts from John all evening...that boy is sick! Thought he batted for the other team...

Still no news on the job front, Brett is now away for a week. Then it's Christmas week, so I'll have to wait and see what happens after that. Have never wanted a job so badly as I want this one. And for once, my job is more important to me than going out and getting pissed.

One precious day off tomorrow! Going to lie in! The thing I hate most about work is having to get up! On Thursday last week I found it so hard to get out of bed, and I kept thinking oh god, another four days of doing this. And I don't really know what I do all day, which makes it hard to look forward to a day because I don't really know what's going to happen. Am beginning to think I don't work very hard...