Maybe it's intuition, some things you just don't question.
Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant.
And there it goes.
I think I've found my best friend,
I know that may sound more than a little crazy, but I believe.
I knew I loved you before I met you,
I think I dreamed you into life.
I knew I loved you before I met you,
I have been waiting all my life.
In your eyes, I see the missing pieces I've been searching for.
I think I just found my way home.
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy, but I believe.

So who was he talking about? Webs and cathedrals... Come on, those of you who read my thoughts, enlighten me.

And YES, to those who keep asking me, I DO still love him. I probably will never stop, even if I do eventually find someone else to marry and have children with. And at the moment, that's not looking hopeful. What have I got to choose from? A few fuck buddies, who want nothing more from me than a warm body, and I nothing more from them than the same? Rumours about a gay guy, attractive as he may be, chasing me? (which I'm pretty sure is bullshit by the way). Someone who professes to be deeply in love with me, but unfortunately, I can't stand the sight of?

At the moment, I'd just be content with one good man. Someone who cares about me.

Even with my twisted history, even with all that, surely I can find one man who loves me.