I was young, but not naive,
I watched, helpless, as you turned to leave.
After all this time, I never thought we'd be here,
When my love for you was blind.
But I couldn't make you see it, that I loved you more
Than you will ever know, and part of me died
When I let you go.
I would fall asleep in hope of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before.
But nights like this are slowly fleeting;
They disappear as reality crashes to the floor.


Headache. Have had it for about a week now. Off and on.

Someone saying some odd things to me on the weekend, in the time I wasn't with Jonny... that he was tempted to take me home that weekend we went out, and he thought that I would have turned him down, and I said don't be so sure, and he said so am I in with a chance? And I reminded him that he is in a relationship, it may be with a man, but it's still a relationship. And he said he doesn't consider girls to be cheating.

And I thought well bugger me, Adam wasn't lying. Who would have thought?

And I can't help but wonder if I will ever be back to normal. At the moment, I just seem to be existing, not able to love, not feeling anything, just trapped in my own timewarp.