I don't believe in the smile you leave me with
When you walk away from me.
I don't expect the world to move underneath me
But for God's sake, could you try?
Is it so hard to give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed, that's all I'm asking for.
I don't understand how you can be so cold,
It's always me who's reaching out for your hand.
I'd always dream that love would be easy.
Is it so hard to give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed that's all I'm asking for.


Such a strange few weeks...I'm not kidding when I say I always get what I want. And so many things lately that I've wanted, I haven't got. Never likely to get, in fact. And I can't even say that it's been a learning curve, because I don't actually think I've learnt anything. I've just been angry, upset and frustrated. And all of this has culminated in a massive migraine that has me puking my guts up constantly.

Great.

I just want to curl up by myself and forget about the world. Forget that I exist and pretend like nothing matters. Adam always laughs at the way I hibernate, but he's right. I do hibernate when things get tough. And it's something that's probably never going to change.

I've slept for most of today...when I haven't been hurling, that is. And now I'm half awake, feeling groggy, and not at all inclined to get up and do some work.

I need chocolate.