Don't know why I'm still afraid-
If you weren't real I would make you up.
Wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
And deep as the sea.
But right now, everything you want is wrong
And right now all your dreams are waking up
And right now I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom.

And remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet
In love's game.
I think that you came too soon
You're the honey and moon
That's lights my life.
But right now everything you want is wrong
And right now your dreams are waking up
And right now I wish I could follow you
To the shores fo freedom.

It amazes me that I can go to some dark places and still be the essence of humanity. I can still be hungry, I can still be sleepy, I can still be happy.

What do I get pleasure from?

From lying in my bed listening to it rain. From lying in a hot bath with my eyes closed emptying my mind. From watching NZ Idol. From my family and friends and most of all from my lovely fiance.

Who loves me no matter what, who puts up with me and my moods, who thinks I'm great. Who plays playstation with me for hours. Who will watch NZ IDol with me.

And as for the child that awaits me somewhere in my future...I cannot wait to meet you.


Not all that is gold glitters, not all who wander are lost. --Tolkein