I don't know why I liked you so much,
I gave you all of my trust,
I told you I loved you.
Now that's all down the drain,
You put me through pain,
Now I want to let you know how I feel:
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now,
Fuck the presents, might as well throw them out.
Fuck all those kisses, they don't mean jack,
Fuck you, you bastard, I don't want you back.


Looking back, I'm not sure why I felt like I did. Perhaps it's the power of hindsight, perhaps it's that I have someone else, perhaps it's just the passing of time.

And it's funny that at the time you don't even know that someone is treating you badly. And then when someone treats you like you should be treated, you suddenly see it, and you think what the fuck? Why did I ever stand for that?

Unreasonable expectations for someone who would never be able to give me what I ask for. And the odd thing is that what I ask for is not unreasonable in itself. Compassion, committment, love.

Especially when someone says they love you. How can they love you and then knowingly hurt you so much?

Maybe the answer doesn't matter anymore.